A few thoughts have been rolling around in my head as of late. Thoughts about goals and ambitions. Change. BIG change.
About deciding that now is “your” time, and going after what you want.
And not just in some half hearted, wishy washy way.. but going all in.
About how scary that can be. Going outside of your norm and being uncomfortable… but somehow, feeling strangely ok with it.
I’ve never been a risk taker. Never been a person who “puts themselves out there”. I don’t like to be in the spotlight, for the most part, especially in person. I prefer to be in the shady corner, hiding out and observing. Listening. Watching. And then speaking up when I have something to add.
Tonight I was introduced to a couple of ladies and told that I was an “inspiration” to them.
I kind of sat there with my mouth hanging open, looking like an idiot before I could muster up some words to mumble.
I mean.. really? ME? If six months ago someone would have told me that I’d be doing what I’m doing now, I would have laughed in their face and told them to go and sell their crazy to another buyer.
You just never know where life can lead you, and if you never take that chance, never step outside of your comfort zone, you really will never find out. It might feel awkward. As a matter of fact, I can almost guarantee that it will feel awkward. There will be times that you second guess yourself. Times when you want to take 5 steps back and rethink things. Times when you just flat out wonder “what the hell am I doing here?” You’ll wonder “WHY am I doing this?!” “What’s the point?”
People might even tell you that you can’t do it. That you shouldn’t do it. They’ll question why you want to do it. They’ll make YOU think that you shouldn’t, or question why you want to , or that you just can’t.
Don’t let them steal your joy. Your confidence. Your wanting it. Instead, use it. Use it to empower yourself and show them that you CAN. You WILL. You SHOULD!! People are afraid of change. Of different. Don’t let their fear and negativity get to you.
You get to decide. It’s in you to make the choice that this is your time. Your time to make the change you want to make. To, as we’ve all heard said before.. BE the change that you want to see. Go for it! Go all in. Plant your feet down and push with all your might.
The road is going to be full of obstacles. Sharp bits that will snag at your clothes and try to slow you down. Hold you back, even.
Don’t let it.
Forge on. Keep your eye on your goal and make it happen. You have the power in you to do it. You might be a bit tattered when you get there, but that’s ok. It will just feel better to you that you earned those bruises and scars.