Today I came home to find a letter in my mail box from Healthy Brandon.
I had no idea what it could be about, so I curiously opened it up to find a letter telling me that someone had nominated me for the “Power To Inspire Award”.

This award is to recognize individuals who have made a personal commitment to healthy living and inspired others to make positive changes in their own lives in the areas of Mind, Body and Spirit.

I have no idea who nominated me. I hope that person will tell me who they are so that I can thank them, because I couldn’t even make it through the letter without crying.

I wasn’t accepted but that doesn’t matter to me. What matters is that someone felt I would even deserve such an award for simply doing what I’m doing to make my life better.

I didn’t set out on this journey to be an inspiration for anything, and I’m honestly surprised every day at how far I’ve come, but to have people tell me that I’m inspiring to them… wow. Just.. wow.

I have never, in my life, felt like I could inspire anyone to do anything. I’m just not “that person”, you know? The thing is, this, in itself… inspires me to do what I’m doing even better. To pour myself even more into becoming the best yoga leader I can be. To work harder to reach my goals. Maybe to set some new goals for myself.. and this time, to go into it knowing that I can and that I will succeed, instead of timidly poking my toe into the water. And to know that there might be even just one person out there that I can affect for the better. Someone who I can help. Someone who looks at what I’ve accomplished and has made changes in their own life, because they believe that if Ican do it, then they can too.

That’s quite an honour. And it’s also very humbling.

So, who ever you are, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. You have no idea how much what you did means to me. I’ll do my best to keep moving forward, and I hope that you come along with me. ♥

When We Are Gone

When We Are Gone

If We Were Gone

The other day I slipped away from work to visit the local art gallery here and take in an exhibition of Vincent McMillan.  

Vincent has been photographing Chernobyl for 44 years, documenting the decay of the places abandoned and left behind after the disaster.

The photos are fascinating and so thought provoking.  I stood in front of these amazing photos in awe (the photos look SOOOOO much better printed large than you’ll see on your screen – his lighting is amazing..) and couldn’t help but think about how the whole world would look if man was suddenly just..  gone.  

I marvelled at how nature takes back over and starts to consume and cover everything, and just takes back what is hers.

Check out his web page – some of the albums show you the same photos spaced years apart and it’s quite interesting.

Meet Me At Twilight

Meet Me At Twilight

Meet me at twilight
as the sun starts to sink
we’ll sit in the stillness
and the quiet we’ll drink

As the colours in the sky
dance and glow
we’ll witness it’s wonder
and peace we will know

The night beasts take over
and still we will sit
and listen to the sounds
and revel in it

When darkness finally falls
and the world becomes black
the stars will dance for us
and bring our dreams back

Letting Go…

Letting Go...

One of the things we were taught in our Yoga teacher training is to instruct our participants to let go of Judgement, Comparison and Expectation. Of themselves and of the others who are practicing around them.

To just accept what their own bodies are willing to do that day, and realize that the people around them are doing the same thing. To push to our edge each day, but to listen to our bodies and let them guide us in what is appropriate to us today.

It’s a wonderful concept. One that more of us should embrace. And not just in our yoga practice, but in every area of our lives.

I’ve been working at this for some time now.

It’s not easy. But it’s coming. Slowly and surely, it’s coming. Some days it’s there more than others. Some days it’s not there at all. It’s so easy to get down on ourselves. So many insults that we can let pass through our inner thoughts – all directed at ourselves.

For example, last night I was trying to take this photo and I was fighting with the lighting because it wasn’t doing what I wanted it to do. I was frustrated. VERY frustrated. I called on a friend and vented a bit and I was mad at myself for being “too stupid” to be able to figure it out.

He was kind to me. Told me that it takes patience and practice to learn lighting. and he said “you’re not stupid”.

I somehow, thought it was ok to call myself stupid, because I’ve been doing that deep down inside for years over so many things. All the put downs in my own head from the time I was a young girl, learned from the careless thoughts of others and from experiences that made me lose so much of my confidence. I said them for so long, that I began to believe it. It’s kind of sad when someone else believes in you more than you do. If a friend had come to me with this same issue and said that about themselves I’d have been outraged! I would have said “Stop saying that!! You’re not stupid!!”

I once read a saying that you probably have seen as well, but it really stuck with me. It said “If your best friend talked to you the way you talk to yourself, would they still be your best friend?”

Man.. that is just so…. so… so………. freaking direct, right? It makes so much sense. You expect a friend to be realistic and honest with you, but you don’t need or want them to put you down all the time. That’s hurtful.

So why do we do it to ourselves?

What if we were kinder to ourselves? What if we were more patient with ourselves? What if we forgave ourselves for making mistakes, like we would with other people?

So, let’s work on letting go. Let go of that Judgement that you hold over yourself. Of feeling like you have to get everything perfect every time. Let go of comparison. Quit comparing yourself to the person standing next to you, and wishing you were better than them, or thinking that they don’t match up to you. Let go of those high expectations that you think you should be able to reach right at this moment. Keep your expectations for the long term. Realize that you have work to do to reach them, and set your goals, but don’t let them run your life.

But most of all, let’s try to accept ourselves for our strengths and for our weaknesses. They are the things that make us who and what we are. When we can accept those things, we can move in a positive direction to be the best person we can be. Inside our minds, and out.